Yesterday, I posted this status:
To all my friends posting about their post-grad plans, congrats!
And to all my friends who are still having trouble figuring that out, don’t worry. Finding a job is difficult and it’s not a race. Keep looking, keep applying and be patient. Things will work out the way they are supposed to!
It ended up getting a really strong response. To be honest, I wrote it partially as a reminder to myself, as well as those friends who are struggling in the same way I did at the end of my senior year of college.
Second semester senior year, I really struggled finding a job. It seemed that every time I went on Facebook or ran into a friend, I was hearing the humble brags about what awesome job they scored and the new place they were moving or how they finally got accepted into grad school.
But then there was me.
I was applying all over the place- literally, all across the country and in different industries. To internships and to full time jobs. I went to the career center to get advice on my resume. I reached out to my network about opportunities and for informational interviews.
But the timing never seemed right.
I graduated without anything lined up and that was really scary. I felt like a failure. I was embarrassed when people asked me what I was doing after graduation and I had to say, “I don’t know yet.”
A month after graduation, I received an offer for an internship. While obviously I was hoping for a full-time opportunity, that internship ended up being one of the best learning experiences I’ve ever had and completely worth the wait.
Alas, the internship ended in January. It is now March and I’m still looking for what’s next. I’ve been interviewing a ton and I’ve gotten good leads. But nothing yet.
If you know me, I’m always going, going, gone. In high school, I was super involved. In college, I was involved and held multiple jobs. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have a job. I guess I really find some aspects of self-worth in my career. But this isn’t the healthiest outlook on life. I’m not going to lie, this time has taken a toll on me.
Yet, after the initial sadness of not having anything lined up yet, I started to fill my days with purpose. If you’ve noticed, I’ve been more active on my blog. I’ve actually had time to read for fun (what??). I’ve been dedicated to running. I’ve had time to cook. I’m starting to be more social. I’m really working on my relationship with God.
I don’t remember the last time I’ve had time where my purpose is to rest.
I’m not saying I sit around waiting for a phone call. I have time set aside in my day to be active in my job search. But I’m also learning to enjoy where I’m at and to be okay with that.
The past few weeks in my small group, we’ve been talking about the seasons of life. It’s really hard to accept the ends of some seasons but other times, it’s exciting to begin a new one. Yet, the transition is always the hardest.
In the last month, my own perspective has changed to be thankful for this season of transition that I’m in. While some days are tough, I’m learning that this is where I need to be right now. This time of rest has value for my soul.
Even though I’m enjoying this time and I know in my heart this is good for me, every time I go on Facebook and see another person post a job acceptance or a promotion, I feel deflated. I am sincerely happy for all of my friends who have worked SO hard for where they are. I am thrilled that they are succeeding in life! But this doesn’t take away from the pain of comparison.
Teddy Roosevelt nailed it on the head when he said that “comparison is the thief of joy.”
Life isn’t a race. Our culture perpetuates this myth that we need to continually grow and move and go. It doesn’t glorify rest. But sometimes, we sincerely need that time to understand our passions and what we are being called to do.
Whether you believe, as I do, in God’s plan for your life or simply in the kismet of the universe, I hope and pray that during your own struggles and times of transitions, you learn to seek the beauty and joy of where you’re at.